One last look back.

Jordan,

Ten years ago today I was an excited 22 year old waiting anxiously at the back of the church gripping my dad's arm like I might not be able to stand without it.

I remember the butterflies in my stomach and the excitement in my heart. I knew at that moment that there was nothing I wanted to be doing, more than marrying you.

I had zero reservations and I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I was marrying the one person God had picked out specifically for me. I loved knowing that.

I still love knowing that. Even when times are tough I have no doubts. I still know that I am with the ONE made for me. That is powerful.

One son and three daughters later there is still no one I would rather sit and talk with, no one I'd rather bask in the sun with, and no one I would rather pray with.

I know that someday we will look back at this moment we are in right now and I will look at you and say, 'I thought I loved you then.' I dont know how it is possible, I dont know how I could ever love you more than I do right now...but I know I will...because I've said before..."I cant love you more than I do NOW"...and yet I do.

And what I said in my wedding vows to you remains true today:

'I am proud today to say that you are mine, but I am even more proud to say that I am yours.'